Life is so like that
Ever felt that a particular day is the worst in your life? Just that one day, everything seemed to go wrong, you encounter silly mistakes, had silly arguments with people you love and mishaps seem to follow you whenever you turn around? I felt that it was one of those days today. But then I reflect on what I used to go through in the past, it is NOTHING. My life was like a soap opera in my teens till early 20s (I'm still in my early 20s wth). Everyday was a drama, either the storyline gets out of hand or... it gets worse. I felt my extreme lowest and my extreme highest in a span of a week. Too many events happening at the same time, overwhelming, consuming me. It was a combination of a horror, romance, thriller, comedy, drama genre movie that I starred in and had no choice of what was going on. A movie I could just act in and no say in how it was going to be produced or directed.
Since mid 2006 till now, my life has taken a different swing. It is more balanced with no signs of slowing down or quickening. No feelings of happiness nor sadness. Just a nice uninterrupted sail on the calm seas of life. So today came to me as a mild surprise, a minor hiccup in an otherwise smooth sailing way of life. The afternoon was OK for me, but bad for a friend of mine. She had some unfavorable moments with shopping, mostly with the cashier and the fact that she couldn't get the things she wanted to buy. We headed to a mutual friend's birthday bash and we had a great time just chatting and eating delish food. After that, I sent my bro and his friend to the train station and proceed to send another friend home. She invited me up to her place for a good bonding session. It is a nice break when you open up to someone again after building walls of resistance due to broken friendships. Breaking the walls take time and when something bad happens, I build the walls again unknowingly. I realized how tall the walls are when I begin to be transparent with someone. Being so comfortable in the shelter of my walls, I forget how is it to love and to be loved.
Lately I've been doing alot of construction work. Just breaking down walls and rediscovering myself and others.
Anyway, in retrospect the day didn't turn out that bad. I felt good that I could open up to people again.
