Everytime I go out, I clutch my purse tightly and my eyes dart back and forth on the look out for rapists, killers or robbers. I perspire and get agitated in large crowds due to the heat and congestion. Cursing and swearing when driving is common.
I still have to get used to it anyway.
At this bridging process where I go from a student to an employee in the professional workplace, I feel vulnerable and naive. So many unanswered questions and doubts plague me. Will I be accepted in work? Will I do a good job? Will my boss like me? Am I going to be a jaded stressed out person eventually? But then I rest my case when I think about the years I have gone through and in every stage, God gave me an answer to every question. I then relax and realise who's the boss here.
nothing is ever set in stone,
the hands of a clock moves,
the waves of the sea rocks,
the winds of the sky blows.
pain is temporary,
so is happiness,
tears dry up,
laughter dies down.
"i love you" faded,
"i hate you" dissipated,
your scent vanished,
your memory gone.
"hello" greeted me,
"goodbye" bade me,
we meet; we greet,
finally, we part.
the sun rises,
the sun sets,
the moon appears,
the moon disappears.
days turns to nights,
days become weeks,
weeks become months,
months become years.
nothing is permanent,
nothing remains.
As cliche as it sounds, the sight of you took my breath away. My pulse quickened, my palms became sweaty. The moment I stepped into the store of luxury goods, my attention was diverted away from my favourite things to you, my new favourite thing. We chatted for long, but not of ourselves. I came up with the excuse of looking at the things you sell, and being the inquisitive customer. Days passed after our first meeting. I got your name but no how to contact you. I thought about you sometimes when I'm walking to class or when I'm out with friends. I even when to your store the second time to see if you were there but you were not working that day. Then one day I had an epiphany. I will search for your profile on a social networking site! And on that day I was so excited to go back into the confines of my tiny room just to log on and find you. And as luck was on my side, I found you on an instant, requested for a friendship and a few days later, you accepted! I saw it as a first step. To something more promising later.
Months go by, and the memory of you faded along with it. With the busyness of life, I hardly thought about you but just be unconsciously aware of your presence on the networking site. Just yesterday I went to the store, to bring my visitor around. I bumped into you and I was surprised. Surprised to see how beautiful you really are and all the feelings from the first meeting flooded back. This morning I logged on to the networking site only to find out that you are now 'in a relationship'. I guess maybe next time or next lifetime then.
